My day was in good company. For work, Rob and I drove Simon out to the Gold Coast to walk the beaches of Surfers Paradise. The weather was gloomy, but i managed to see past the fog and the red, muddy, slick roads that accompanied the small trip. To my surprise, i had an eye-opening shift working with the disabled young man. Though i did not get to bask in the sun or dive into the ocean, i realized that my natural calling to take care of and protect others is more than just a natural gift- it's what i'm supposed to do. I understand now that in my heart i have always known that i needed to take care of someone- whether it be a significant other, family, or just a friend. Having a heart with unlimited, unconditional love and care for others is most definitely something you come across every so often, but i feel i am worthy of the position. Coming from a family who has experienced such hardship first-hand with disabled loved ones, my empathy is bottomless. The thought of an equal going without unconditional love and care breaks my heart.
But i suppose i should step out of the hazy, surreal world that is my mind and let everyone back home know that this trip to Australia has already had an incredible impact on my life. Before i left, i knew i was coming here for something significant but i didn't know what, nor did i expect to know- ever. It is to my delight to let everyone know that i will come home a new woman, touched forever by the hearts of people that need me. People that truly, sincerely need me. In the past i have struggled with a sense of abandonment, like i wasn't needed enough or like the friendship i had to offer wasn't quite what people wanted from me. I always knew that i had this incredible ability to make people feel comfortable but i never quite saw the feedback i always wanted. I know now that my past is a minor bump in the road. Without everyone back home that ever left or abandoned me, or even faded away- i wouldn't be in the place i am this very second. So here is a thank you to those people that dropped me, lost interest, or left... without you, i wouldn't know how to feel.
After walking up and down the beach with Simon, he grabbed my arm and linked elbows with me and walked up the sand dunes and to the car. After a single day, he knew he could trust me and felt safe- something he wasn't able to do so easily in the past. So with that, enjoy these photos i snapped during the walk. It was a beautiful day, and i hope you're having/had/will have something similar.
With every loss there is a gain. Without that loss every gain that follows would hold no meaning. So chin up, and enjoy your day. Love endlessly, and remember that no matter what- i love you!
-Mack
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